Well, I'm not a scientist. I don't have the power of logic on my side. I don't have the ability to think "if this, then that" and plan accordingly. I just do things. Half the time, I don't even know why I'm even doing them. [He's laughing now, laughing out of anger, out of frustration; laughing because it's always, always been a more favorable reaction to crying.]

I'm sure I don't need to tell you this-- it's probably already pretty obvious to you. But I just don't understand it. Why, why in God's name would you try to live peacefully with someone you can't stand?